Generational Curses

My heart is heavy. The last people I ever thought would treat me as bad as my dad did unfortunately… 

😫 I don’t know what to do or think. I started writing this in hopes that it would help me gather my thoughts. Instead I can’t help but feel sad and lonely.

I mentioned in a previous post that I grew up an only child. It is not a pleasant experience and I do not wish it on anyone. While other people had the benefit of siblings I had to endure everything by myself. I think those who also grew up as only children can really relate 😔

What a tragedy that we grow up to be like our parents. That means we make the same mistakes they made. I hoped that the wrongdoings would stop with my generation. Why must the cycle of trauma continue on to our children? And then to our grandchildren? And so on and so forth…

I don’t know what you’re viewpoint on God and/or spirituality is 🧘🏻‍♂️ But it is times like these that make me glad to believe in some sort of Higher Power 🙏 With all the pain and heartbreak in this world, there is just no other way I can possibly cope 😭

I am going to end with a prayer. You can view it as a wish or a hopeful dream, but I want all of it to stop 🙅🏻‍♂️ Can’t we just end all of this suffering we inflict on each other? What happened to love? ❤️‍🩹 May we stop being self-centered and focus on other people’s needs ahead of our own 🫂 May it start with me 🙇🏻‍♂️

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