Helpless Feelings

If you guys didn't know by now, here's the big news. My car got stolen. It's been 2 1/2 weeks since the unfortunate incident, and the car has been recovered. Yippe for me... I went to see my car today, and well... It wasn't good. All those feelings I felt the first week it happened came flooding back, and I feel helpless all over again. To everybody reading this, I never, EVER, want any of you to feel that way. All that week I wanted someone to just shoot me so that my misery would end, or at the very least just add to it! The car has been stripped. The side moldings are gone along with the battery and a tire. The driver's side lock and power window button has been ripped from the door. Nothing was left inside, so all my personal belongings in the car is gone. Oh and let's not forget the stereo WITH the speakers...
I don't know how to explain how I feel. I am angry and depressed at the same time. I could just kill someone right now, but I know that I shouldn't. I could just scream and shout out of pure frustration, but can't quite seem to do it. I refuse to cry, but feel myself very close to doing so...
And it isn't just the car. I already have my frustrations with my roommates (more on that in another post). I'm only working part-time so do not make enough to get by. I'm barely surviving, I'm barely making it through another day sane, I don't know what to do next, and... And... I'm totally broke.
*SIGH* Life sure sucks sometimes. I need $400 to get my car out of the tow lot, plus money to get a battery. Right now, I'm selling the car to a body shop to get rid of it and not have to worry about it EVER again. I'm currently sharing a car with my roommate, but there's barely any gas in the gas tank. Oh, and by the way, he's getting his wisdom teeth pulled so he doesn't have any money to really fill up the gas tank. I sure hope things will get better. Please pray for me guys. I don't feel good at all.

dkFX

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